Was it the heat, the leftover feelings from the girl's night before, the lack of lunch on a hot day that was making me feel introspective? The spiritual dust of the Israel journey was falling on my heart; clarity was filling my mind, memories of trip after trip to Israel. And now another one was ending.
We popped in another fashion store. Trends lined the walls, jewelry hung on floor to ceiling pillars and a song I'd never heard before loudly played. The song stopped me in my tracks, deepening the introspection.
Tonight, I'm gonna swing from the Chandelier
From the Chandelier.
I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist.
Like it doesn't exist.
I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night,
Feel my tears as they dry.
I'm gonna swing from the Chandelier
From the Chandelier.
I was entranced with this pop song melody; with the droning of the powerful ballad voice that sang with such emotional passion. My heart strings pulled through my chest swirling into the atmosphere with each lyric sung. I stood in front of the jewelry while the other girls were thrilled with their finds. I picked up a necklace, not wanting the song to end. What was it about this song? It was more than a catchy pop song. "I must buy this song when I get back to the States." I arrived home in Pennsylvania 15 hours later and my life went on. I forgot about the song.
A few weeks later, my stepdaughter arrived in Pittsburgh. We spent time together laughing, shopping, listening to each other's favorite songs, talking about her toddler sister and dance moms. And would I ever be a dance mom? I doubt it! We laughed and giggled and that's when the song was brought up. "Have you seen the video to Chandelier with the Pittsburgh dancer?"
Instantly I was on the streets of Jerusalem again. That Song. And immediately it was pulled up on her iPhone. I heard it again. That song. That melody. That same passion that made me want to spin in circles with my arms stretched wide, face turned upward screaming, "I've made it, I've made it, I'M FREE!!!!" I never wanted to forget that song that stirred such deep emotion in me.
Upon arriving home I played it over and over on my iPad and that's when I learned the meaning of the song. According to www.musicinsideu.com and www.fuse.tv:
Describing the "party girls don't get hurt" lifestyle, Sia's song goes a little further than just the partying. She describes what happens when "sun is up... here comes the shame."
Uniquely and painfully honest...